Someone breaking in and harming them is a real posibillity, I know. I’ve been through the war in Balkans.
Just another example of the senseless world we live in.
I grew up in a civil war, and my parents through a "regular" war, whatever that is. You, me, and they will never know the extent to which war has influenced our psyche for it is the only life we knew.
What I'm saying is that, emotionally, you owe it to yourself and your children to seek help and survive. Intellectually, you owe it to your brain to seek help and find a way to maximize options including being in a rut.
I hope I'm not being too insensitive.
Re:Ask HN: What’s wrong with me
by CyberFonic on Sunday June 10, 2018 @09:30PM
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Perhaps you are having PTSD or similar flashbacks. The episodes can start many years after the experiences that they relate to.
Please seek professional help. You might see no point in living, maybe someone can help you see differently.