Of course not. I wish I was. It my personal life that it is lacking meaning. No real friendships, I work remotely, I barely talk with people in months.

That being said, I strongly believe a meaningful work supplant this somehow. Yeah, maybe I am too pretentious or just trying to cover the sun with two fingers.

I think you found the root cause of your issue. We are social creatures. Without deep meaningful connections with our fellow humans, mental health will take a turn for the worse.

90% or more of the work out there to do is pretty damn hollow if you really stop and think about it. The chances of you supplanting such a deep rooted need w/ some "change the world" type work is slim to none.

Focus inward!

Have you thought about starting a side project outside of work?

Something that might satisfy your itch for meaningful work or something that might "force your hand" in building relationships or interacting with others?

I've always found that when I'm working on something that I'm really interested in, that the positivity of it transferred into my life outside of that work.

This may sound ridiculous but I challenge you to commit to 4 salsa or tango classes.

Salsa is just a lot of fun and tango is a straight out hug overdose.

Embodiment and socializing are incredibly underrated by capitalism.

Let me know if you choose to follow up. If you are in Berlin or Oregon or the Bay Area or LOS Angeles I can recommend tango teachers.