It's not a big deal, certainly not worth suicide. You might try to reframe your thinking: Amazon is not 2nd tier. In standalone voice assistants they are basically number 1 at this point. So you have a great opportunity here. Google is playing catch up and Apple has lost its momentum. That being said, if you want to work at Google or FB, identify what you need to improve on and then do it. Interviews are two way streets, it can be as much about them than it is about you. Also the money will come. Focus on learning, networking and doing good work.

The money will come eventually.