The road to hell is paved with good intentions. That's the delusional part of the problem. You won't look at it because admitting you have a problem is the hardest part. "I'll do it later." is the primary failure mode we have for personal improvement across just about everything. Diet, personal finance, interpersonal relationships. There's a whole category of aphorisms dedicated to this.

Nobody is going to schedule time for integrity on the project roadmap. That's not how integrity works. You can find some or lose some, but on any given day you have it or you don't.