I’m a construct-aware thinker. So it means something different to me now than it would to my previous nihilistic stage.

Here is a nice model of human cognitive development beyond the meaninglessness of nihilism:

http://newpossibilitiesassociates.com/uploads/9_levels_of_in...

Also see David Chapman’s writings on Robert Keegan’s models - https://vividness.live/2015/10/12/developing-ethical-social-...