Are you disillusioned with the current status of programming/IT/tech in general?

I cant say if I'm reading this right, but it really sounds like you're suffering a crisis of confidence in your decision to spend your time / career in tech (tech just being a broad catchall). I might be making a leap, but to me your tone of frustration and harshness ring familiar and its an open secret that a lot of us hit this brick wall at one point or another.