I understand that the subject of Philosophy by itself should be neutral (as it is dealing with abstract categories). However it inhibits me greatly from delving deeper into it (beyond some very shallow grasp) when considering that its main use is to talk to power (either by bowing to it or by opposing it).

Even the philosophy of language is used to justify the rule of our species over the animal kingdom. The word of Marx taken as gospel was used to oppress and murder a lot of people, the use of Nietzsche taken as gospel was used to justify the murder of Jews and others, the practical application of the whole subject is soaked in blood up to a point where I am asking myself: has any good ever come out of it?