$3 million, no. Ridiculous in my mind at the time, yes.

Also - first real development project from start to finish. Not sure you can put a monetary value on seeing your work actually being used in real life.

Definitely regret letting myself get so burned out / used by the company but don't regret putting everything I had into that implementation. Still miss that job - though I think (hope?) that was professional rock bottom so it's a good force to stop working at a certain point.

Of course, I am not an MD and I know nothing of medicine, however I think it's not unreasonable to imagine that the sort of episode you describe could have ended with a crippling stroke or even more awful consequences.

If you had ended up permanently blind, or in a chair, would you have had any regrets?

Yeah of course - that would have not been ideal. I know myself though (and know field of the niche products I work on) and I was just going to keep pushing myself as hard as possible until something like that happened.

I'm glad everything worked out and wish it happened a different way but if I didn't hit that burn out then I'm sure it would have ended up much worse down the line.

At the very least now I have a better idea how/when to tell future bosses to go fuck themselves :)