I'll piggyback on this and note it seems like you're self worth is tied up in some sort of uber coder thing. I can relate to a point. After I'd read Fred brooks and some other literature (specifically Weinberg) that talked about 10 or 100x programmers, and tied that with Paul Graham's beating the averages, I had this idea that a true uber programmer could reimplement some significant thing with enough cleverness, and suitably powerful language. A concrete example would be some 100x-er recreating Google in 6 months or something (this specific example is a bit flawed due to hardware and storage requirements but meh).

There are a lot of flaws with this line of reasoning, but mainly the activity of writing code becomes secondary to defining the problem domain and solution.