Thanks I appreciate your concern, been dealing with it for a long time and have explored various treatment options. I would say yes it's nearly constant suffering. Just an exhaustion with life, 30 more years of this doesn't appeal to me. It's mostly around not having the level of dating/sexual privilege that most women experience in the dating market and just being out of energy to keep searching for a mate every year.

Then i hope you have found some things which work for you. And kudos for keeping going.