Yep, I do feel like I have to work all the time, and I do feel guilty when I'm not working. Pretty sure you're right that I'm doing some damage.

I feel like one of the worst parts about a compressed work schedule is that I've mostly stopped playing & exploring, and exploring is where the good stuff happens. Many of my most important personal developments and achievements were on "fun" time, even if it was work. Doing overtime and working too much like I'm doing now mutes that.

I have some commitments in the short term that mean I can't fix this very quickly, but long term I aim to be where you're at for sure.