You know, maybe it makes me sound bad but I do enjoy leadership on a smaller scale and where I am ultimately in control. I know one-man bands don't get very far (usually) and some people management is expected even in your own business. I guess my point here is that yes, you're right I have enjoyed leadership previously and thought the step up would be similar but it's not.

I read it more as the OP had their own company where they were in charge of making decisions AND executing them, and there's no real indication of managing employees. I suspect they enjoyed the execution. If they don't enjoy dealing with people's crap and putting out fires, senior management of any reasonably large group is probably not for them - and that's absolutely okay.