I never did meditation but did a few "retreats" into other countries to get away from everything and just have some time for myself. I had a similar experience where it made 'click' and suddenly I was a lot more aware of all the anxieties that I have and usually don't think about. It made everything else so insignificant that I feel I am constantly wasting my time with almost everything I do.

I still have it and not sure how to get rid of this feeling. At the same time I feel "good" that I "found myself". It made clear for me what I actually want in life. Now I treat things like a stable job, work and a salary are just temporary and intermediate steps to reach my actual goals.

Getting reminded about these things with a scary anxiety attack is indeed not nice but I learned to "use it" to my advantage as good as I can.

At the same time I need to keep myself busy to not get reminded about it too much.

Again, still no idea how to "solve" this problem.