Not sure if this helps. I'm also a self-thought programmer coming from a similar story -started programming at 10 and never stopped since- I'm in law school now, but I continue to spend nearly all my time hacking. Sometimes I think it's better not working as a programmer, because I'm very passionate about computers.

I was depressed for a long time that I couldn't study CS. Then I realized, I can learn what I want freely. I have an entire life dedicated to computers.

Although I secretly dream about inventing the next facebook, I mostly embraced the fact that I won't be able to get a formal education and a job in the field.

Tinkering with computers is part of who I am. The rest is not in my hands.