I finally was able to start my software development career in my early 30s and I found happiness working on a small team where there's a lot of work that needs to be done.

I can't necessarily do things the best way every time, but we have enough difficult problems to solve and its always appreciated when we make the marketing team's job easier. I love that my work either directly translates into more cash coming in or saves us a bunch of cash.

I'm a mediocre developer and okay with that I guess. I know that my potential is way higher, but I also feel like there's some greater calling out there in my life that is not my job/career.

It takes the edge off that feeling you're experiencing -- I definitely felt the exact same way in previous jobs.

Love the Ren & Stimpy reference in your name btw.