Well, I consider you one of us. A person. A flag might be something to die for, but a culture is something to live for.

> I don't feel physical attraction for the average brazillian either.

Well, maybe you are not one of us after all ;-) Then again, who feels attracted to average people? Don't we most often feel attracted to those that in some way stand out?

Being mixed race myself, I faced a similar problem; too white for brown people, too brown for white people. The only thing you can really do is to learn to love yourself, because that's one thing you can't change.

That sounds like it's nowhere close. Choosing to not self-identify with one's country of birth or naturalization is very different from the fear of rejection discussed above.

It is not just fear of rejection, I actually got rejected.

Example: My parents live in a neighbourhood where most people are mixed race, but heavily black (ie: people have a obvious brown skin, and have facial features and bone structure of black people).

More than once when walking on the street, I had people follow me with weapons or dogs, and one time when I was buying coca-cola in a bar on the neighbourhood, some people playing snooker stopped playing, made a circle around me, and said in a threatening tone that I was "not from here", I then pointed them my house (it was distant, but visible), then they left me alone.

Similarly, when I am visiting white-heavy areas, specially if people are slavs/nordic (russian, swedish, etc...) they also treat me as an outsider, for example they prefer to talk to other white people.

Or when I am with my uncle (that is more dark skinned) in my grandpa car (he has a expensive car for brazillian standards, a Toyota Corolla), police stop us, thinking we are thieves or thugs.