throaway5544333

Hey, I've been in a same situation except that my problem was not alcoholism but an addiction to painkillers and then opiates. Lost pretty much everything due to the complete disaster I became. I was a security engineer back then and you can guess that my responsibilities didn't play nice with drug addiction.

The latter arose from my chronic depression and the lack of ability to create any long-term social relationships which are not based on professional interaction. I have never had friends outside of "workplace buddies" mindset for all my 33 years of life. They were lost instantly when I left the job. I've managed to find a way in remote consulting which lets me pay the bills and have some food (I quitted drugs cold turkey two years ago). But nothing hits you harder than a feeling that it's all over and you are tamed with your loneliness, the only thing that is left is your aging you don't want to face.

I can give no word of advice to you, but I want to say that I feel you. You are strong, don't let 'em get you this easy.