meh_master

Interesting. I tried Adderall a few years ago as a stimulant, but it had no noticeable effect.

I ended up going through a month supply of it in under a week, I kept upping my daily dosage hoping for a miracle cure, because I wanted a magical pill. Happiness in a pill or something that would numb me to daily life.

I took Celexa and Cymbalta a few years ago but neither seemed to do anything for me. I may give medication another shot in the future, but I don't know.

I've been depressed for over ten years, I'm currently thirty years old.

I left my job in January due to depression, though I didn't tell anyone. I haven't worked a day since then and am just living off savings as they dwindle. I haven't spoken to any of my former co-workers who were my only contacts in the Bay Area since I moved from the East Coast to work at a startup. I've spent all day every day numbing myself with weed, porn, mindless internet browsing, etc. I don't even code, every time I open up Xcode or Android Studio I just end up doing nothing. And I honestly just don't want to do anything.

The last time I went out socially was in January of this year and even that was just with my then co-workers. And over the past ten and fifteen years it hasn't been any different. I can count on one hand the number of times I've been out socially over the past ten years that wasn't work related (and while employed the number of times I went out with co-workers also number in the single digits).

The isolation is what kills me. I haven't had sex in several years and haven't had any intimate relationships in my entire life (the sex were just one nighters and nothing more, and I've never had a "best friend", not even in high school or middle school). Unlike a lot of people with depression, I don't have friends, family (all on East Coast), or girlfriends (I've never had one). I don't even talk with people online, not through FB, not anonymously on web forums or instant messaging. In the past week the only people I've talked to is the cashier at the local supermarket, and that was just to say I wanted a bag and say "thanks see ya later". In fact this is the first time I've written about depression online, I've only told a few people (my mom and a doctor) that I even have it.

I've had a hard time dealing with it. I'm trying to get into meditation and what not. But I mostly fear the effect of this extreme isolation. There's a lot of evidence that it kills your brain (literally).

I'm reading a book called "The mindful way through Depression". I bought it over two years ago and only started reading it two months ago. I'm still only halfway through. The worst part of depression is that it saps my energy to do anything, even when I do read the book I'll read several pages and not remember a thing of what I read.

Sorry about the wall of text if anyone reads this, but it's 5:46 AM and I'm not doing anything else. I haven't gone to sleep yet...I'm just mindlessly browsing the web (I discovered a new TV show earlier today and am marathoning it right now). Either way I still hold some optimism for the future.

Perhaps he's a part of the "meritocracy" of Silicon Valley's start-up culture?

The ~99% white male meritocracy, apparently they're the only ones who are where they are due to merit.

Pretty good time to sell, given that all that traffic will be gone by next week. But I think the dev and any potential buyers know that.

Wow, reading that kind of pissed me off.

Hopefully it gets more attention.

Is that hyperbole or would Google actually do that?

I'm not familiar with the Play Store or Android in general but it seems like a lot of clones and cheap ripoffs are available.

off-topic: why does Ben Horowitz always include rap music and a quote which aren't relevant to the article in question? (other than that he just likes rap)

> I am kind of embarrassed to admit that after all these years, I still don't understand Bitcoin. Not the underlying software and algorithms - but the concept, the system.

I don't either. Which brings me to a point, is it even intended for a mass audience and wide-spread adoption?

How could I explain Bitcoin to my mother for instance?

I'd end up down the rabbit hole just to explain the words and concepts used in the definition of Bitcoin...cryptography, private keys, wallets, addresses, miners, the block-chain, and on and on

I did the same, but went up to 75 before jumping ahead by a few. The final frame is 164 in case anyone's interested.

> Bitcoin companies may quickly move to focus on properties of the blockchain that are not related (and, perhaps more importantly, more profitable)

What properties?