maelvathk

- I would marry the love of my life.

- I would NEVER accept that job offer

- I would leave the country (I'm not from the United States)

I'd love to be fired. I hate the job, I hate the work environment, I hate the pay and I hate programming.

Well, I don't know if I'm depressed but let's say that despite having a stable life; a loving wife that cares about me, a loving family and a stable job, I feel deeply unsatisfied and unhappy.

I hate my job because I feel unproductive, incompetent and frustrated all the time, despite having a good relationship with my wife our sex life has going to hell and I feel it's my fault because I don't feel sexually attracted to her like before. I can't connect with other people because I feel awkward and out place and feel like I don't have anything relevant to say so I always avoid conversations. For this reason I have lost many friends and I haven't made a new friend in 10 years.

I spent a lot of the time daydreaming, thinking of "what could've been" as if my life was done, but it isn't because I'm 35.

It's quite difficult for me to predict the future because I live in a small town of a third world country where things move so slowly that any future I could imagine won't materialize.