khios
I can feel the medication starting to wear off around 4PM and get sucked into the time blindness and must work/play rather than spend time with my family.
Thanks for your message. Eyes opening
I never had a racing heart taking it and it didn't elevate my tension. It allows me to take a nap when I want without those racing thoughts about "life"
I don't give a shit about my job but it allowed me to buy a house, take vacations and sometimes buy an extensive toy.
I would gladly stay in my own world and daydream away, doing some woodworking and see birds in my garden but if I lose my job all that will go away.
So I take my ~3€/day pill and try to do my best. I've lost so many opportunities before getting diagnosed...
It allowed me to stop eating my feelings (which allowed me to lose 13kg and counting), made me stop drinking, I still play games but can stop whenever.
I know I will surely have to take it my whole life (days I don't, I'm a wreck) but I see it as a diabetic needing insuline.