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To be blunt, my life is great on the surface. I am the cause of my own issues, usually, because I am very unfilled, depressed, etc.

You're not alone.

I have learned that single-person businesses often fail because we lack support and accountability. Consider finding someone to work with you. It might become a strong bond. Try meetup.com and "ProgrammingPals" on reddit.

Good luck.

I'm so sorry. I'd offer a hug if possible.

1. I agree - living organisms are inherently cancer. Especially humans. However, I have come to accept without pain we cannot appreciate pleasure.

2. I have a great job, wife, kids, etc. but still feel depression and have suicidal thoughts. Do not feel guilty for them. Honestly, I might have killed myself if I didn't have children.

I also look at the world negatively. That's what I'm trying to change. Ignorance is bliss. If anything, work towards adding a rose-tint to the way you see the world. If we do that, and choose to make positive contributions, eventually we will outnumber the sour a$$-holes destroying us.

You can chat with suicide prevention online: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/LifelineCha...

Come east. You can make high 5 to mid 6 figures with a fraction of the cost of living.

Although I don't subscribe to the core religion here in the mid-south (TN), I have found the average person to be friendlier and more helpful.

Nashville would be a good option.

P.S. I left my last job because they pivoted to fin-tech for upper middle class. I wanted to focus on the under-served communities but was vetoed. You're not alone.

I wish I could offer you a real hug and ear.

My wife and I have split up twice before but the last time was the worst. It bankrupted me and we almost divorced. We lost a house, a car, savings, etc. Historically, I come from an emotionally abusive background and suffer from anxiety and depression.

We keep saying we'll go to counseling but keep pushing it off. We are together now and have agreed to make it work. My last job was great but the compensation wasn't enough. So, I moved on and rejuvenated my career + family. Recently, the company has moved to a sales-centric organization instead of the engineering-centric organization I joined. I want to leave. I'm unhappy but can't give up the benefits. I'm trying not to take it out on my children - who I love so much but also have a nagging feeling sometimes that they have aged me and made my life more difficult.

Plus, eco-future is terrifying.

We go to church now. It's methodist. I don't believe in a man in the sky but find the community helps my depression. They offer counseling (a third party) for free. And I now work with the youth - more community focused vs religious.

Good luck. And it can get better.