buridan

What you are experiencing is called 'science'. Normal science has around a 95% failure rate, great science is 1 in a million or billion. Most science is 'the grind', collecting, considering, developing minor things, most of which end up to be wrong. It is hard work, it is challenging work, and 5 years from now, you will either be part of something, or you won't.

If you think science is or could be otherwise, I think you are basically just fooling yourself by being completely unaware of history. Science isn't 'hacking' something together and making it work, it is finding the answer, not just 'an answer', but 'the answer' and even then 'the answer' is likely to be shown to be wrong by someone else. Knowing and learning what is wrong is as important as finding what is or could be right.

It sounds to me from what you say above that you want to be some sort of freelance creative computer consultant more than a researcher.

btw, no one needs another google, not because google is the best or anything, but because the model of centralization and massification has reached its potential and fails for too many people.